life

Dang its been a while  since ive been on here but im glad that no one i truly know follows me on here cause i feel like i have no where else to vent out my thought.
well here goes nothing. i just don't get how i can have so many friends but yet i feel like i dont. i know that they care for me but i just think that they don't and i know they dont. and then theres a big difference on how i act compared to them but i know i shouldn't worry about that cause everyone has there own way of acting and i just feel that im the odd one out when i hang out with them cause i don't think the same way they do or act. But with that i know i shouldn't change how i am to fit in but really what can i do in a situation like that. But i know that if i put my faith in God and he will lead me down the right path and will help me through it.
its crunch time now and i just hope everyone that i care for will be ok and work hard on their studies and what not.

V-day

Well it valentines day and again im alone with no one like i have been for the 18 years ive been alive hahaha but i dont care i would rather be with friend who are awesome them be with only one person for a whole day YAY for singles awareness day hahaha but who knows there might be a day when i will meet that someone but ill be waiting for that day to come......

Apperance

Ok well its been a couple of days now and i just feel like i should be writing and today seems like a good day to do it. well i have always thought about this and its always been around me and i just don't know what to do cause i live with family that is really hard on me about it and every time we go somewhere they say something about it. I know that i shouldn't care about it that much but it just there in the back of my head and it just wont ever leave. I know that its not health but i feel like i just need to do something and I think that I have an idea of what i'm going to do but well see.
  
But on a Happy note the Packers Won the super bowl YEAH but i guess thats all for now.

hmm..

well its been a couple of days since i had my last post, i had a great weekend at home and hangin out with a friend back home which was fun. but as i was there i thought about relationships that i have with my friend and thinking are they goin to last or am i just going to lose them after a year of hanging out? but as i sit and an think it about more i just feel like i wont have that kind of friend relationship and with friends moving to different college and other moving on with there life and what will become of me. Will I be friends with the friends that i have now or its it just another time in and people will just come and go. I can guess ill make more friends and be happy and i cant for the day that happens but who knows when it comes. But on a happier not TET is coming up in like three days and i cant wait. I really hope i do something fun with friends if they do decide to do something fun that night HAHA. well i guess thats all for now and now time to draw alittle and see what come out of my head

Friends????

Well its been like two days now since i have written anything and i felt like it time again. As im sitting here listening to old musical that I've been in and have had great memories about with and im sitting here thinking about the people i hanged out with back then. As i thought about it i only hang out with about only a hand full of them now that im in college. I still keep strong connections with them and as i type this i remember something that one of my friends had said and it was : make new friends, keep the old, some are silver and some are gold. when this was said it was at our senior banquet and everyone was thinking about the future and at the time that quote stuck to me and i thought that seemed right but now that im in college the apart on "keep the old" really doesn't work. There are people who think that people can keep the same friends that they hung out in highschool but the truth is that it can happen but very small amounts. 
     Now with life still moving on i feel like i still dont have that one true friend like most people have. With the friends that i do have i feel like there just there. I know they like me as a friend (i hope) but theres just something there that i feel like theres something they dont like about me, maybe its just my personality and it makes me feel unconfident about our friendship and that it will make me just go and not talk to anyone and just keep to myself. I know that it's not a good idea but that all i can feel and nothing esle about it, but just write on here while listen to les miserables ( haha how ironic). I just think that its me thinking this and it probably not like that at all and im just worried over everything but losing one of my best friends in highschool who i really trusted i just dont know what i should do just talk to them or just keep it to myself or talk to someone whos known me for a long time and i guess they could help me, but i just dont know...

Good Morning

Well its the morning now time to do the usual get ready then class but don't you hate it when your roommate just brings in a friend every tues an thurs to hang out and they wake u up in the morning when u want to sleep a little longer???? but what ever i just hope today will be awesome and i get to try chili for the first time ever today i hope its amazing haha

do people really follow

Now that I have a blog i always see people with many followers and i wonder will anyone follow me at all?? But I guess that its just if people like to or not an if they do i hope that yall enjoy all my entries but who knows right????