Friends????

Well its been like two days now since i have written anything and i felt like it time again. As im sitting here listening to old musical that I've been in and have had great memories about with and im sitting here thinking about the people i hanged out with back then. As i thought about it i only hang out with about only a hand full of them now that im in college. I still keep strong connections with them and as i type this i remember something that one of my friends had said and it was : make new friends, keep the old, some are silver and some are gold. when this was said it was at our senior banquet and everyone was thinking about the future and at the time that quote stuck to me and i thought that seemed right but now that im in college the apart on "keep the old" really doesn't work. There are people who think that people can keep the same friends that they hung out in highschool but the truth is that it can happen but very small amounts. 
     Now with life still moving on i feel like i still dont have that one true friend like most people have. With the friends that i do have i feel like there just there. I know they like me as a friend (i hope) but theres just something there that i feel like theres something they dont like about me, maybe its just my personality and it makes me feel unconfident about our friendship and that it will make me just go and not talk to anyone and just keep to myself. I know that it's not a good idea but that all i can feel and nothing esle about it, but just write on here while listen to les miserables ( haha how ironic). I just think that its me thinking this and it probably not like that at all and im just worried over everything but losing one of my best friends in highschool who i really trusted i just dont know what i should do just talk to them or just keep it to myself or talk to someone whos known me for a long time and i guess they could help me, but i just dont know...